Incarcerated Child... Nothing to Live For

I grew up with one of the longest wish list in the world and never received a single thing on it. In elementary and junior high school I was the class clown without telling a single joke. I was ashamed, embarrassed and hurt by the way I was forced to accept this type of abuse. The girls in my classes weren't interested at all and out of the entire school I possessed one friend. I was officially what you call a VUP (very unimportant person), and life as I knew it became worthless. Killing myself was never an option, it’s a cowardly act that doesn't fit my character. The reality of it was that I didn't want to die, I wanted to live and at the same time be alive… but I didn't know how. I wanted to feel loved enough by my mother to send me to school in a satisfactory and comfortable fashion, loved enough for her to sacrifice the things that made her happy in order to make me happy. When that never occurred I figured the streets had the filling to satisfy my needs and I dived in head first.

At 15-years-old I didn't think I would see the age of 25. My relationship with some of the associates I had in my life painted that grim picture every day that I came outside. Not to mention the many times my mother told me I would never amount to anything. I knew nothing about having dreams and aspirations growing up as a child because they were never topics of discussion in my home. Without that experience and an absent father I realized I had to find my own way in this life. My father was and still is incarcerated so proper parenting never played a role as I grew both physically and mentally. On top of feeling alone I didn't know who, what, when, where, why, or how to do anything. Because of my ignorance to these things I chose a world I really didn't understand the consequences of living in. But since I didn't have anything to lose or live for, I didn't care. It was that act of carelessness that landed me in near death situations and prison for almost 20 years of my life.

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Welcome to this Angell's Life

Hello folks! I am new to Author's Info, and excited to get to know people! I figured I'd take a moment to introduce myself in my first blog post. I am Heidi Angell and I am an author. Author. That is such a funny word. The Merriam Webster online dictionary define an author as- a : one that originates or creates : source b the writer of a literary work (as a book) So, yes, I am an author. I have written several books. I am also a PUBLISHED author, as I currently have two books for sale on Amazon and Nook. ( Royal prince Vince is a charming children's book and Creative Exercises to Inspire is a great way to get your creative juices flowing!) Yet, because I self-published, I am classified as a "Self-published author" which, is somehow considered less than a "real author". Here is where we escape the niceties of Miriam Webster and enter into definitions which are subjective. It really is quite messy. Many self-published authors are so frightened by the stigma of "self-published" that we would rather ride on the coat tails of "indie author" (which, until a few years ago, was as dirty a word as Self-published, but I shall not digress!) We form our own publishing companies, to make ourselves more presentable. But if a publishing company only publishes work by one author, and is owned and operated by the author, is it really an indie publishing house? Hmm.... Yet, I have one. Angell Enterprises, where on my site, I offer services to help other authors publish as well. (Everything I have done so far has been for free, even. Go figure!) I have not published anyone else's work, but I have given advice on manuscripts, helped edit, and am even helping other authors to market their own work... which they have decided to publish under their own indie companies.Part of me thinks that if a handful of us got together and agreed to operate under one publishing house, and to pool our efforts with one another, then we could compete with the bigger houses better. But how does one go about this? Especially when it comes time to split the checks? Who gets to be the CEO, the CFO, etc. Hmm... it gets messier. So currently I am my own CEO, CFO, Editor, marketer, social media expert, etc. I work in collaboration with other authors and their publishing houses (Such as Dawn Tevy of Soul Star Multimedia, LLC. and Lee Newman of Fisticuffs Publications), Depending on the services, I get a mention in the book, maybe a percentage of sales during a marketing campaign, or just a great big smiley face on Facebook ;). Around all of that, I am also working on my next release, The Hunters, and waiting for my agent contract to expire on a psychic thriller series, so I can publish those next! And you thought I was just an author!

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A failed system, or is it?

    Above is a picture of Frederico Bruno, he is accused of pushing his ex-girlfriend and 3 month old child out of a window three stories high.  He climbs down from the same window, finds a metal bar stool leg and beats her with it as she is lying on top of the 3 month old baby who broke her fall to a concrete ground.  Read that over again.  Take a deep breath.  Now who is the blame for this type of violence?  Before you go any further, let me add this too...the widow also had an air conditioner installed in it.  For real!  Who do you blame for this type of violence?  Violence has such a profound meaning.  It sure can sway any jury.  Oh did I tell you, he sliced up the victim's friend who attempted to call the police.  Yes sir!  He left them all for dead.  Sad ain't it, or is it?  What if I told you crimes like these are good for business?  Business?!  

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Mahogany Keys: The Complex Image of the African American Man.Part 3.The Black Man as a Protector

   The Black Man as a Protector

                                                                                  

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No Cancer Diaries....So I Speak Up To Save Lives!

People are often surprised at my candidness when it comes to speaking up about my battle with cancer. In August of 2010 I was diagnosed with a rare form. You know that thyroid gland that exists in your neck? It does wonders for your energy levels and helps regulate your metabolism. Well I had malignant thyroid tissue in one of my ovaries which is almost unheard of. So much so that my case was referred to Yale University (PA) and involved Kaiser Permanente, Washington Hospital Center, and Holy Cross Hospital (DC Area). It required that I also have my thyroid removed in March of 2011 just after my birthday. I then had radiation treatment shortly thereafter in May of 2011. 

The fact of the matter is, cancer is plaguing the nation, It is becoming as common as the cold it seems. I am not ashamed to tell people about my experience because in my mind it may help save someone's life. As I take this journey, it is my hope that someone will hear my story and it will drive them to keeping their regular doctor visits. Furthermore if one feels in their heart that something is not right, it is important to pursue it and get as many opinions as possible until the source of the ailment is found. I know this from experience as mines went under the radar until after the decision was to made to have the first surgery. It was not until the biopsy was performed that what they thought was a large cyst was confirmed to be cancer. Wow! 

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