Tiffani Martin

Going to sleep last night I was surrounded by nothing but love. My children my spouse all in the same bed might I add. This morning when I woke I had no clue that one of the loves I was surrounded by would need me to hold her as her body shivered while her stomach rejected what it took in the night before. Eco's from my boys saying mommy I'm hungry and fluids splashing into the toilet from the bath room. I'm standing in the kitchen getting ready to cook pancakes and eggs for the family. I looked down and in one hand I had her insulin pin and in the other was pancake mix. Then I heard it again splash... I'm currently in the process of writing several books this is one of them. I've spoke of it before it's about my daughter an her life with Type 1 Juvenile Diabetes. I began writing this book in 2012 it's named "Keep on P.U.S.H.n"...

My morning starts with her in mind she's (My Bratt) Brittiani a name that I'm very distinct with and that I've taught her to also be distinct with as well. Every day is a challenge for her I can't imagine how it must feel to wake up every morning knowing if I don't take a shot by the end of the day my life might be ended. You see my daughter has Juvenile Type1 Diabetes she was diagnosed at 7 an now she's 14 and for seven years we have struggled I have yelled, loved, cried, cuddled her on the floor when she could not move from pain of her muscles contracting from her blood sugar coming down from it being so high because she forgot to get the shot and had done it so often she didn't want to disappoint me so she didn't tell me... Only for me to wake to 2-3AM sounds of feet running through my house and I find her in the bath room head over the toilet puking her brains out because her body is now rejecting all the sugar/carbohydrates she now put in it because she forgot to get the insulin she needs to live just because she wants to live like a normal kid. Whats wrong with that? I can't Imagine what it feel like to wake up in the morning and have to get 45 units of one insulin that just takes you through the day and now you just have to...

Good morning I’ve not had internet in 5 days and every thing in my house works off internet. My cell phone and house phone is magic jack wifi only (everything)! I call my provider and I was told my services where due for payment but not out for disconnect they’ll see what they can do mean while I should see what I could do about a payment for $112 hold please. I waited and was told I believe we can have someone come out Saturday between the hours of 3and5, but you really need to get that payment in so I go on to say our payment is not due till the the 9th he says no your payment is technically due on the 6th which was yesterday and that could be why your services have been (disconnected) so I believe it would be in your best interest to start making your payments on time... Before I answered I took a long deep breath an said a slow pray to my Father asking him to control my words as I blew my breath out. I said okay thank you can I expect a technician Saturday between thous hours? He said sure also is it possible you might be able to give me a time we can expect a payment from you? Here at Charter we are pushing our customers to pay there bills on time. Now mind you my bill was not DUE until the 9th! I got off the phone...

Often in life God takes us on obstacles that are designed to mold us into superhuman beings.... (If you BELIEVE in God you must think that possible.) And to be supper human you had to endure a few things, and in that you learn to respect all things and take them just as they are. After all God designed them to teach you how to be the best you, you can be. Why not take lessons from the one who created me. But, we must learn to humble ourselves to life's lessons when taught. Allowing it to pierce your soul deep within causing a careful prayer to be spoken under a breath of air; when a reminder approaches us we remember the adventure we once stared in the face. When once I was lead astray and disobeyed my Father and received the punishment to be.... Unbelievably it was that He'd never live my side and was with me all the time. Before your able to bask in His love to much... Here comes another trial that laying at your feet reminding me to keep doing the best you can. Not wanting or wishing to relate to anything but the moment and the skin you are standing in. Staring back at you in the mirror is the Lord who has yet done it again... I know no soul that can make me whole when I know I am not complete. YOU are my goal LORD it is you WHO I choose to...